Starting Point

This is my account of how I see it. Others around me may recall it differently but this is how I think and view life and my situations. Talk about a whirlwind! Balancing child, finances, spiritual growth, family, friends, work and me has my head spinning right now. I have been lucky to be staying with my parents for the last year, but I was unemployed for 6 months of that time. Getting caught up and ready for our move into our own place has me excited and stressed.Financially I am not where I should be to be making this move. Life has just recently taught me we are never ready for life changes so either you move forward and live life with faith or you stay stagnant and do nothing ever! The events that have lead to this choice is a series of events. Recently I was trying to reconcile with my estranged husband. you know in typical woman fashion I had dreams of riding off not the sunset and happily ever after. Well let's say that was the goal untill I got a little snoopy and found panties, jewelry and a nightie in his room. These things I was fine with untill I found the open pregnancy test. When asked about the objects he says he forgot about them. So needless to say that was a rough day. Lots of prayer and Christian friends guidance I was able to start on the path of regaining my peace and forgiving him. It's still unknown what that relationship will look like in the future but for now I'm done. I always thought I would be married and out of my parents house in a short amount of time. So with the recent eventI have come to the conclusion that it's now or never. Either I live fully now or die. There is no more time than now. So that is the happenings in the last month that lead to now. Through Christ and sheer will I will somehow figure out how to afford this apartment, electric, car pymt, insurance, cell phone, child care, food and all of life's expenses on my limited salary. Tons of women do it so now it's my turn! I don't anticipate a lot of people to ever view this, but if you do and have a comment please feel free. Thank you, American Momma